A game in which, in a couple of hours, you see what has been hiding for years
I help people who are tired of being "proper" remember who they really are.
Roll the die Breathe with me for 16 minutes Your first 5 moves are free
Ask your question and roll the die
Your question doesn't need to be clever. It needs to be alive. Your token starts on square 68, "Cosmic Consciousness": the game begins here and returns here. Leela lets you into the game on a six, and from then on the die leads you across the board. On every square you'll find my description of it and questions to ask yourself.
Your first 5 moves after entering the game are free. The whole game until the exit is €35, with 30 days of access.
The game needs a clear head: please don't sit down at the board under the influence of alcohol or other mind-altering substances.
A conversation not with a game, but with yourself
Leela comes from India: a board of 72 squares, a die and your question. I give the meaning of each square and ask questions, but I never tell anyone "this is your problem". People draw the answer out of themselves, and that is why it works.
Very rational people often come to me, the kind you can't get into any other practice. I affectionately call them "tadpoles", all head. For them, Leela is often the first.
A test drive for a decision
Leave your job or stay, move or not. On the board you can walk through both scenarios and feel which one is yours.
You see where you get stuck
How you react when something doesn't go to plan, where you get in your own way. It's hard to see from the inside, but in the game it all shows.
You leave with a first step
The game ends with a sentence you take back into life and one concrete action. And for the first 2–4 weeks, no sudden decisions.
Breathe with me for 16 minutes
Today you are here to come back to yourself. Not to an image of yourself. Not to a role. To the real you.
"Coming Back to Yourself" · connected breathing, 16 minutes
Before we start: how are you right now? 1 — empty, 10 — full of energy
The practice is in Russian for now. The English recording is coming soon.
And now? How are you right now?
Your answers stay only in your browser.
Sit or lie down comfortably, put on headphones, close your eyes. There will be holds on the in-breath and on the out-breath. You stay in control: at any moment you can go back to your normal breathing.
This practice doesn't replace medical care. If you are pregnant, have epilepsy, serious heart or blood pressure problems, have had recent surgery or are in a severe mental health condition, please write to me before the practice.
How to play with me
1Try it
Open Leela
freeOnce a month online. One person plays, the others watch and find their own answers.
Find out the datePlay on your own
€35Leela here on the site: my descriptions and questions for all 72 squares. 30 days, first 5 moves free.
Start the game2Go deeper
Leela Immersion
€13010 days in a group: a move every day, my audio and questions. A new group every 6 weeks.
Join the next groupOther ways to pay: PayPal, Revolut, TWINT, IBAN transferGroup Leela
€180Up to five people, a whole day. Hints often come through other people's games. A €50 deposit reserves your place; the rest is paid on the day.
Reserve a placeOther ways to pay: PayPal, Revolut, TWINT, IBAN transfer3One-to-one with me
Individual Leela
€2554–5 hours one-to-one, with breathwork at the start and the end. You leave with a route.
Choose a dateOther ways to pay: PayPal, Revolut, TWINT, IBAN transferBreathwork
on requestGroups and one-to-one, online and in Geneva, in RU · EN · FR. For teams too.
Breathe with meBreath and Leela in the mountains. Together with Tasha Yadrentseva, we're preparing four days in the Alps: trekking with nights in mountain huts, breathwork every morning, hours of silence on the trail and Leela at sunrise at 3,000 metres. No special training needed, groups of up to 10, starting and finishing in Geneva. People on the waiting list will be the first to hear the 2027 dates. Join the waiting list →
A career in international organisations: my recorded job search course and CV webinar (in Russian).
I'm Ays
I worked in the UN system for 13 years and ran projects in 12 developing countries, from Haiti to Kenya and Uzbekistan. Then I left the most stable job there is, and my husband and I moved to Brazil with no contract and no plan.
In that uncertainty I trained in a new profession and began leading breathwork and Leela. Now I live in Geneva and connect things that don't usually go together: the cool head of a project manager and working with the body. I bring all of myself to the game.
- 13 yearsin the UN system
- 12 countriesprojects on the ground
- 800+people have breathed with me since January 2025
- Since 2021leading Leela: OMKARA school, certified by Vladislava Zheigalo (2025)
Testimonials
"One game turned me inside out and opened up what neither a psychologist nor a psychotherapist could"participant of an in-person Leela in India
"With her it feels safe to go into vulnerable places your mind won't let you into the first time"player, 9.5 hours of individual Leela
"The question was unravelled masterfully in 20 minutes… Ays isn't about ice, she's about a warm, flowing state of love"Leela player
"With you, Ays, I always manage to find my footing. Never once otherwise!"breathwork participant
Translated from Russian. Names are hidden: I only publish names with consent.
Frequently asked questions
Is this esoteric?
I'm really not about unicorns. Leela shows how you make decisions: I give the meaning of the square and ask questions, and you draw your own conclusions. Breathwork works through the nervous system, that is, through ordinary physiology.
How does the die work?
Honestly, I've stopped trying to explain it, because it works every time. The board responds to the slightest change in your state: someone is moving along steadily and suddenly slides down. I ask what happened, and hear: "at that moment I got distracted".
How long does a game take?
An individual game usually takes 4–5 hours. Sometimes it's 20 minutes, when a person simply gets confirmation of their path, and sometimes a whole day. A game, once started, should be finished, and I stay with you until the exit.
What happens after the game?
The answers unfold over weeks. For the first 2–4 weeks we don't make any sudden decisions, we observe. I send you the recording of the game so you can watch it again.
Online or in person?
Most games take place on Zoom, and we roll the die in Telegram. In person, I play in Geneva and on trips: there have been games in India and Istanbul.
Who is this not for?
Leela and breathwork don't replace therapy or medical care. If you are in an acute crisis, are taking strong medication, or breathwork isn't right for you for health reasons, write to me in advance and we'll decide together.
Where to begin?
Roll the die right here, or write to me on Telegram about the question you're living with right now. I answer myself.